Hatred.
Pierced through my heart.
Again and again and again,
Yet I feel the pain no more.

Get real.
Show me another you.
I'm sick of tired of this shell already.
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I know supposingly,
I shouldn't be blogging nemore.
But my blog is the only place where I could really flare up to no extent.

I can't believe I'm saying this.
But I no longer love my dad the way he used to.
This time he really went over the limit.
After several times, telling him that I NEED my computer,
He just don't care,
And each time, every confiscate would be silent.

I don't get it.
Blame me for using the computer?
It's like everyday,
I study like hell for everyone.
Everyone including you.
And here you are again and again trying to shrink me.

Please stop using stupid excuses.
You don't even know the different purposes of getting online.
I have my reasons: to blog and to talk to my friends.
Yet you always think I'm those stupid idiots playing what,
maplestory, gunbound craps.
Everyday refusing to get my eyes off the monitor screen.

Enough.
If you want the computer to not be used so badly,
Fine.
Take it all you want.
I'm sick and tired of trying to give in already.

And so I screamed at you.
I demanded you take what you want.
I told you that if you take away my computer,
you are already taking away part of my life.
And thus,
I no longer see the part of me striving for you.
So watch me fail.
Watch me flunk.
When I score for others.
I don't for you.

I called you an idiot yesterday.
But I don't regret,
Because sometimes you just won't act like an adult.