I realised.
There wasn't enough sunshine to keep my world spinning.

I have to say thanks to jieting, mervin and cheryl.
But I have to say sorry too,
And not troubling them again.
I have my reasons for doing so.
Please do not question me why, or make it more terrible for me.

Today had lps outing.
Wasn't that great.
But at least enough to get sunburnt.

Well I had eventful chats with yihui.
And basically pretendance was what I carried out.
If everyone becomes emo,
No one would have the job of peacemaking anymore.

It was very difficult.
Yet I managed to smile.
All the way during sentosa.
All the way at harbour front.
All the way during MRT to boonlay.
All the way at jurongpoint waiting for jieting mervin pengyang and gary.
All the way on bus ride to lakepark.

And then I couldn't take it anymore.
Yet what was let out was just a tiny part.
Of the whole undertaken.

I felt indebted.
I felt unfair.
I felt tired.
I felt moodless.
And I really wanna stop time.
I wanna stop carrying on.


I can't.
I have alot to carry,
And a long path to walk.
I guess I had to endure again,
In my world of pretendance.

I have a promise.
And that is meant to stay.
So I apologise to everybody else.
This just have to carry on.




I have a pair of wings.
It's tearing up.
One was because of the turbulence.
Another was because,
It doesn't wanna fly anymore.


It's not really 11.59pm now.
I just wanna make sure this ends up for the right day.


REPLY TO TAGS ->
Joel: Relink-ed(:
jasmine: Please, stop saying that. I had my faults too. And it's only right to apologise for the many wrongdoings.
clara: yohs?
hui: GOOD FRIEND<3.
cheryl: thanks NAIMA. I appreciates every help you gave. But all these should stop. You know my reasons, and I hope you'll understand. Nevertheless I'm still open for problems, so seek me for help alrights! Anyway I think you have to buy me chocos too! So we owe each other chocos!