I won't cry,
Even if love doesn't come back.
The friendship parachute flies past the field of sorrow,
Giving me a braver reason to stand strong.

Rainbows departed the clouds.
With you waving with the wind.
Whispering softly, you said,
To walk with me through this long path.

I won't cry,
Even if it doesn't come back.
As long I have your company, and your hug.
I'm already smiling.




I think.
I have to stop thinking.
Because if I do.
I won't know what to think anymore.

To be or not to be?
It's all too risky.
Mervin.
I need you to guide me.
I need you to tell me.
If we are what we are.
Anymore.

Because a part of me is starting to walkaway.
And no, time doesn't heal anymore.





[edited 8:37pm]

Went bballing with pengyang, jieting, jiaqian and jiemin.
I finally got the steps to layup, although not perfected.
And my nails prevented the grip of the ball.
Aah what the hell.
One of them broke.

Then as usual went lakepark.
They said to wait for him to initiate.
I doubt it.
But yet.
I realised.
I treasure this friendship alot.
The only two reasons why I'm trying to walk away.
1) I don't think he treat me that much as a bestie.
2) I want him to be less burdened. Being with gary is already tough enough.

So what should I do?
But now,
After much thinking.
I can't seemed to let go.

Tell me how.
Tell me now.
I'm loss for words.

My feet hurts like hell.
And when I heard from pengyang, "he said shawn should understand" ;
I really knew and understand.


MCFLY - TOO CLOSE FOR COMFORT.
download.

I never meant the things I said to make you cry
Can I say I'm sorry?
It's hard to forget, and yes I regret all these mistakes.
I don't know why you're leaving me, but I know you must have your reasons.
There's tears in your eyes, I watch as you cry
But it's getting late.

Was I invading in on your secrets?
Was I too close for comfort;
You're pushing me out, when I'm wanting in.
What was I just about to discover?
When I got too close for comfort, driving you home,
Guess I'll never know.

... ...

What is friendship?
Define friendship.
In terms of being true and pure,
Or pretendance and surfaced.

What are we exactly doing now to salvage this relationship?
Nothing.
I'm waiting for him, he's waiting for me.
And I wonder what went wrong.