Tuesday, November 07, 2006
I know they are worried.
I just have had nothing to offer.
Other than they being there for me and all.
I couldn't be there to help him up.
Remembered the times I used to be so moody and down?
I feel like reverting to those days now.
Where I had no friends.
Where I was all alone again.
I feel so foolish now always the one being the nuisance,
That all I wanna do now is to back away.
No I guess it's not them now.
It's me,
And I'm the one that caused them to distrust me, or treat me like I was five.
And I'm the one the ought to stay silent, like the times when I did.
Being hyper isn't always a good thing now.
It gives them the impression that I just needed to be comforted each time.
What's with giving in to each other? being there for each other?
I don't want you all to always ask me whether I'm alright or not.
What? I'm emo and I can't help it.
Please don't worry about me.
I have nothing to be worried about.
Just doesn't feel like appearing online that's all.
So what if I did?
I have nothing else to offer,
Other than pain, burdens and more problems.
I'll get ignored if I try to help.
My calls and smses are always left unattended.
And I doubt if I don't make any sound, people wouldn't know I exist.
Maybe it's time I lock my heart away again.
Take me to hell right now.
The vehicles on the road,
Speeding so fast..
Knock me down.
And only when they noticed ;
When I don't want them to.
