I'm not blaming you.

I was the cause for trying too much.
Like the maximum curve.
Soon it would be just like when it first started.

dEDITIN 2.34AM
Don't grasp what you perceived it to not be.
Rejoice.
For it's a brand new year.

You know we don't want it to turn out like this.

Yet fears, cowers,
Just like that nightmare with limitless stairs.
Running all the way up to nowhere..
2nd floor.. and the 3rd.. the 4th..
Away from everything that is happening.

A part of that subconscicious mind filled with resentment.
The other waiting for an opportunity to leave forever.

No one for guidance.
No one for assistance.
No one there for support.
Like half of the world knows but not doing anything to help.

What nostalgic thoughts.
They aren't happening.

But I'm glad that you're back.
Unharmed.

dEDITIN 7.13PM
Where's that hug ,

Break into two.

dEDITIN 9:05PM
Haircut.a
Nailscut.a
Reportbook packed.a
Stationaries packed.a
Books packed.a
Homework done.a
Pocket money taken.a
Uniform ironed.a
All geared up for tomorrow.


Unlike others, not keen at all to return to school.
Why am I getting this hunch that everything is getting so awfully wrong and fast ,
It's this anxiety of facing them like normal, like nothing happened,
That I feel so nauseas and exhausted all of a sudden.



Those tears,
Were all miserably shedded.
Those eyes,
Were all uncomfortably swollen.
Those hands,
Were all tightly clenched.
Those fears,
Were all devouring light.

And that piece of heart,
Was gradually disappearing,
Erasing it's existence.

That boy,
Crying uncontrollably,
Feeling that something is already lost.
Knowing that nothing can be more fucking wrong than now.

shawn .

dEDITIN 11.26PM
Tomorrow will fine, don't worry.
And you are wrong ,
To say that time measures everything.

If you really believe so.
Then there shouldn't be any time limit at all.