Wednesday, February 28, 2007

[ milions of smiles. the faces of bliss. ]


alrights let's see what happened.
yesterday didn't go school.
but did went to jasmine's house for bainian.
yayness finally finished the twomonth planner!
took me like 2long whole hours.

alrights then today,
was super exhausted,
but didn't managed to sleep a wink in class.

after school started raining heavily.
went home with jiahui&gary before going to have lunch at west mall.
then go studying in bbmac.
okay lah I was like so pissed with all the amaths questions.

bought ohchangkee and tutukueh.
then went home on this displeasing day full of puddles.


hmmmm I haven't open any of my hongbaos yet.
have to wait for sunday!
oh and on saturday naima's birthday huh huh.
tomorrow's biolesson.
and career day which i'm going to miss.

friday is sec1camp.
woh so many stuff happening this week.
march holidays coming too huh.

ohkays got back all my common test results.
hmm here are the summaries of all the scores.

ENGLISH - C5
EMATHS - A1
MOTHERTONGUE - C6
AMATHS - A1
PHYSICS - A1
SOCIAL STUDIES - B4
BIOLOGY - B3
CHEMISTRY - F9
GEOGRAPHY - C6

CONSIDERED NOTBAD LAHH because I passed my geography!
Heard that alot of others failed terribly.
And then biology!
Outstanding bah I think it's pretty okay for starters.

But the sickening chemistry.
Just because on that sickening day before I studied physics.
Totalwhatthehell.
hmmmmm at mingqi's blog,
and aidao kept looping and looping.

aiyah i wanna go nap now lah,
OHWAIT CANNOT NOW GOT HANAKIMI!
ooh go watch go watch!

&wohh going to watch just follow law at 9:30 later.
hmmmmmmmmm somehow it feels weird leh.


you know,
I tried to help.
but then,
haish you both gotta learn to open up to each other,
till everything is like per normal.

don't wait till something happens,
and what was was never anymore.

Monday, February 26, 2007

[ that's the kind of dim that always stays unnoticed. ]

ALRIGHTS HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOON JIAWEN FANNY!
My nevernever can watch NC16 movies already le lahh.
Hah glad you enjoyed that fest out.

Hmmmm I aced my amaths test!
Okay lah I shouldn't be so joyous when everybody else is gloating.
GAMBETTE ALRIGHTS.

Aiyah it feels like acupuncture man inside my head todayy.
Somemore it rained again.
After bio lesson I didn't managed to stay for long at study group,
Though I planned to make up for all the loss I've made during this chinese new year.

Anyway aircon's down so HAISH bo bian have to shift to parents' room huh.
headpain ah headpain.
btw edited the blog song.
with a little of beethoven's pathetique.


darkness whimst,
with fireflies dancing to it..
once more,
the petals fall and,
here comes another tragedy.

oh oh &apparently,
i've survived reading every bit of everything.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

[ this is my resolve, slowly cracking into nothingless. ]

Alston is adorable right right hah.
Haha oh well going to miss him loads.
Besides I'm having chinese new year craze to start with.

Aah things are getting so hectic!
Like yesterday,
Supposed to go to YYH's house yeah?
Missed it and then cousins came,
Then went to aunt's house at choachukang till 3 in the morning.

Tsk okay it's not probamatic yet till we discovered my room's aircon is broken.
Slept in the living room for like 4 hours and woke up because of the unbearable sunlight and stuff.
Wahlao then somemore today so messy.

Okay today's supposed to go to my sunday study group!
But then supposed to go to nevernever's birthday dinner at 6plus!
Somemore right now visitors are in my house for don't know how long!
And there should be chinese new year prayers tonight!
Plus should be watching movie with cousins today!

Five stuff clashing at the same time.
If only clones.

So how?
I had been missing the study group for dunno utmost times alreadyy,
but but we've been planning to go to celebrate fanny's birthday for weeks!
and and I wanna watch the movie too!
And wanna win win by gamble gamble with visitors man yesterday I won 30plus again~
&I can't possibly miss prayers.

And right just now,
I've realised I hadn't finish my weekend homework.
GREAT RIGHT JOYYY


but everybody else can tell,
that I confused my feelings with the truth,
because I liked the view,
when there was me and you.


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Saturday, February 24, 2007

[ one firefly to light up this patch of darkness. ]

Hmmm starting this planner.
2subjects2hrs2chapeters each day!
&i wonder if ms koh's way of studying will really work.

An interview with the vampire huh.
ohwell thriller recommended by mstang.
anyway my sister is super dumb using the computer to like 6 in the morning.
&she goes out in the afternoon somemore it's so not fair that she uses the computer whenever or whatever she does be am at home.

aiyah today's comprehension test during editorial,
I guess the sec1s and sec2s have to strive better to match my intellect.
hah no lah.
ohwell tomorrow's going to aunt's house for bainianing.
going to be there till midnight I guess.

hmm what's going to happen to the yyh's house thing?
and well on sunday if we're not going to celebrate my nevernever's birthday,
i guess i'm just going to go for lps study group which i've missed for don't know how long weeks.


not that you care.
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don't worry i'll forget every little thing ;)

Thursday, February 22, 2007

[ fantasies are meant for dreaming, not for pursuing. ]

Gahh just reached home from aunt's house at bishan.
Cannot believe it ah today go bai-nian somemore.
Everyday also so late then go home,
Lucky me complains to mom she call cab hahs.

Hmm forgot ODT today.
Both maths test & physics test scored A1.
Dozed off during english test.
Then cabbed home all the way from school right after hmms.

Aiyah everyday of the week sooo sooo busy.
Tomorrow have CCA prepared comprehension for sec1s&2s already huh.
Saturday going to bainian again.
Sunday don't know going whose i think mervin's house for steamboat bainian-ing.
Maybe in the morning go visit popo at commonwealth bah ;D



I shouldn't care what they said.
I shouldn't care what he said.
I shouldn't care what she said.
I shouldn't care at all.

Aah buey tahan! Go orh-orh already wake up at 4 to do homework!

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

[ to be the best is to stand out from the rest, and not eliminate them. ]

Argh jackjack's adapter is like super loose.
Shit nevermind I'll get a new one soon.

Apokalypse would have been a much better movie if wasn't for all the cleavage.
Haha you can see boobs here and there.
No wonder it was NC16.

Hmmm cousins & visitors came over to my house for this fourth day of chinese new year.
Ohwell I think I kinda resolved some of my tiredness having a nap that lasted for around 2 hours.
Oh and and won 20bucks plus today in gamble not bad huh.

Tomorrow's another day.
Hope getting back emaths result.
HAH fatimah, don & demello shall owe me drinks if they score better than me.
Which by the way was a little surprised demello was lactose-intolerant too.

---
The flowers here are like paintings, the child thought, laughing as he ran across the meadow. He wished his parents had come along. But his parents were busy pitching camp.

'Don't explore too far,' his mother had said.

He had pretended not to hear as he bounded off into the woods.

Now, traversing the glorious field, the boy came across a pile of fieldstones. He figured it must be the foundation of an old homestead. He would not go near it. He knew better. Besides, his eyes had been drawn to something else - a brilliant lady's slipper - the rarest and most beautiful flower in New Hampshire. He had only ever seen them in books.

Excited, the boy moved toward the flower. He knelt down. The ground beneath him felt mulchy and hollow. He realised his flower had found an extra fertile spot. It was growing from a patch of rotting wood.

Thrilled by the thought of taking home his prize, the boy reached out... fingers extending toward the stem.

He never reached it.

With a sickening crack, the earth gave way.

In the three seconds of dizzying terror as he fell, the boy knew he would die. Plummeting downward, he braced for the bone-crushing collision. When it came, there was no pain. Only softness.

And cold.

He hit the deep liquid face first, plunging into a narrow blackness. Spinning disoriented somersaults, he groped the sheer walls that enclosed him on all sides. Somehow, as if by instinct, he sputtered to the surface.

Light.

Faint. Above him. Miles above him, it seemed.

His arms clawed at the water, searching the walls of the hollow for something to grab onto. Only smooth stone. He had fallen through an abandoned well covering. He screamed for help, but his cries reverberated in the tight shaft. He called out again and again. Above him, the tattered hole grew dim.

Night fell.

Time seemed to contort in the darkness. Numbness set in as he treaded water in the depths of the chasm, calling, crying out. He was tormented by visions of the walls collapsing in, burying him alive. His arms ached with fatigue. A few times he thought he heard voices. He shouted out, but his own voice was muted... like a dream.

As the night wore on, the shaft deepened. The walls inched quietly inward. The boy pressed out against the enclosure, pushing it away. Exhausted, he wanted to give up. And yet he felt the water buoy him, cooling his burning fears until he was numb.

When the rescue team arrived, they found the boy barely conscious. He had been treading water for five hours. Two days later, the Boston Globe ran a front-page story called 'The Little Swimmer That Could.'
---

Notoriously, the boy was granted with the phobia of enclosed spaces.
If he hadn't had tried to reach for the flower.
He wouldn't had been given such a condemned fear.
However he managed to survive,
Though the well was deep and almost impossible to get out from.

I have a dream to be better.
&I intended to fulfill it no matter what happens.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Third day of chinese new year!
Woh woke up today feeling super nauseas.
Must be the fatigue building up inside but who cares huh.

Went to angela's house in the morning with the regulars group.
Haha her brother is so fun!
ohyeah I blackjacked 4 times haah.

Then went to seagull's house till 4.
Ohwell played blackjack again.
With bball girls &nerissa damn funny can.
Then also not bad lah hmmm at least totalled up I don't have to pay for the movie tic.

Then finally cabbed to jurong east due to long waiting for bus,(which by the way appeared right after we boarded the cab)
To watch twins mission with pengyang.
Like any other boring movies which I'll call an action-stupid movie.
And the to-be-continued made the ending worse,
I mean nahh i'll pass with a sequel.

Saw vivian, minghee and tania at je.
Then went to choachukang to aunt's house.
Was already weary and drowsy there already.
And steamboat for a fourth day,
I feel like dying already.

I guess I'm gonna follow in my cousin's footsteps,
To bring bingxuan & bingyan out sometime.
Plus bingyan was so bright reading out those spelling words even those that wasn't gonna be tested.
And the hanyupinyin I guess he deserves a reward.

I have no time for homework no time for prison break!
Howhow gahhh and tomorrow's school day alrd.
Somehow I got reminded of the dumbdumb chinese new year greeting my form teacher send me.
&plus visitors tomorrow too.

On the bright side, MORE ANG-BAOS!
:DD
&boohoo for Marchen Awakens Romance! it's only subbed till episode 52!
darn imma go get the anime on dvd :D


hmm don't know what's wrong with me today,
Must be something wrong with my insides,
The whole day I was either farting, burping or getting the feeling of shiting.

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Monday, February 19, 2007

Exhausted.
Whoa today was home rather early on this second day of chinese new year.
Hadn't had much sleep with all the celebrations going on,
Plus travelling to places like yishun, thomson road & admirarity for instance.

Haha though didn't really get the festive mood at all,
Pretty much love those gatherings and activities going on.
Steamboat on three consecutive nights!
And those adorable cousins bingxuan, jiaqi etc.

&I'm so proud of my luck!
Won 55bucks with a mere 2dollars.
Aah my throat feels super dry and my tongue is scalded,
I mean with all the candies and beer and heaty food.

I'm super tired fancy getting up super early because of all those stray dumb birds that come to the altar outside my house to squabble over the chinese new year cakes.
somemore the night before came back home at around 2-3plus and watched dvd till 4.
gahh my eyebags getting huge eh whoah can fill in school bags.

Tomorr'w not going to old home anymore another day perhaps.
but going out with friends for bai-nianing,
then house-visit my aunt's house.
hope dinner isn't served steamboat again.

Sunday, February 18, 2007

[ a broken promise that should never had been glimpsed by hope ]

300th post!
Aha later going to get hongbaos already!
Gahh woke up feeling still super tired wondering how the day shall carry on!

Dad said to get ready by 1.
Ohwell rush rush rush!
Has to go pray later and etc.

YAY MEETING TANU LATER!
Wo0ts.
Happy Chinese New Year everyone!~


---
To the two utmost special persons before,
What we've been through,
What we were,
&What we are now.

I don't know what I did to make things change.
But guess this is it.
Words you both said.
They hurt and scarr,
But made me get a clearer picture on what naivety is.

Never cried so badly before.
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If this is the end,
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I'm sorry I'm useless.
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ahha i'm okay no one worries okay i'll live more now that i know (:
but yes yes this is the final straw i'm not going to try forget everything.
haha yayness for chinese new year smile smile!

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Saturday, February 17, 2007

[ a woeful heart filled with utmost regret and emptiness ]

Yayness prison break & more Marchen Awakens Romance yesterday!
Woh woke up today feeling so deprived for no reason though.

I made use of the afternoon well y'know!
Blasting music while revising last year's chinese.
Ohwell better than to whilst time away right,

Just had reunion dinner.
Okay actually still going on but I'm finished with my share and the adults are on with their usual chinese new year's eve chat.
I don't have the mood so how.
This year's chinese new year seemed so dull and pointless.

Gahh looking forward to watching the countdown later.
And tomorrow haish would be the first time the family tradition breaks,
Since my mom's eldest sister is away overseas and only be back on the fifth/sixth day of chinese new year.



I'm making my preposition over here.
And I'm not getting anything back.
Seemed like you don't wanna carry on,

Is that it?



I hope not.
Or I'll feel offended that the past never meant anything to you at all.

Friday, February 16, 2007

[ memories alone, thou shall us bind ]

Haha today cabbed alot heh?
To lps & from bugis.

School is sucky to the ultimate.
Can't help feeling weary in class and falling asleep.
Gahh. But looking forward to end of the day since there's no school till wednesday next week!

Seriously what's the point of having the auditorium or gallery in the hall when you want to squeeze all five levels of the school in one scampy space,
&make us enjoy the celebration too.
Okay first it was the nono half-day curriculum.
Then came the cca-compulsory.
Total f lah.

It was kinda torture trying hailing a cab under the dry hot sun.
Took quite a while before me and yeeping finallygot one.
Reached lps and met up with beloved friends.
Then few of them went home while a number of us went bugis cos cheryl wanted to buy her heels.

Pastamania-ed!
Then went bugis street despite of the rain,
TSK fancy getting all sweaty in a damp place filled with crowds that just pushes you around.

After that yeeping and gongtuo went home by mrt.
Regretted so badly to stay and flag for cab,
Cos all that went past are either locations thats not within our destinations,
On-call ones and those fricking blind ones.
Managed to keep the mood with the russel peters with goodfriend.

Finally booked one taxi after number of tries but failures cos lines were engaged,
And i swear we walked all the way from sim lim square to raffles hospital carrying heavy bags looking like idiots lah ,
And for 1hour plus somemore.
Haha then went to get a white chocolate lat`e at coffee bean there.
Hmmm i think im gonna get rashes since i can't take lactose and im feeling itchy all over right now.

Looking forward to your sweet sixteen-sleepover naima!
Totally love my beloved lps.
I had fun today.
And something to look forward to will be that chinese new year more red packets!
Yayness more more money!



i don't understand you.
at all,
and if this is the end,
i hope you should feel that you're making a mistake.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

[ me and my thoughts again . this is such a sad life. ]

common tests finally over!
pengyang is not in singapore anymore.
vballs had their finals today.
amaths today was kinda seemingly easy but I know I've made some stupid mistakes already.
aarthi passed me my valentine's gift already.

yay tomorrow cny celebration!
don't care i'm not staying for cca 'cos I want to be with my beloved LPS.
looking forward to this day all week.

it rained today again.
the chill is making tears up in my eyes.
ohwell think too much very tired already study everyday finally can rest go to sleep.

---
There is a list of stuff I don't understand.
&I might never understand anyway.

Pardon me for being straight.

I don't understand why angela gives me the cold shoulder at times,
even without telling me what I did wrong.

I don't understand now why amelia's trying to sever every single stuff we're connected with,
and to the extent of telling me goodbye and telling me she won't bother me anymore,
when I didn't do much even to know what she's so mad at me about.

I don't understand why my sister is forever making my sleeping hours cut short,
despite the number of times I've screamed at her,
and in the end she always has the authorty to slam the door even after she made me wait an hour plus.
for a stupid reply even though it was only '5 minutes' she said i'll have to wait.

I don't understand why mervin isn't trying at all to make things okay.
he's not going to want everything back then it's fine with me.
with all he &everyone who said that want things to be okay.

forget it no need to understand then don't have to understand at all.
not like i'm important or special it was just me all along.
if they wanted to leave things as they are then it's just me, my studies and my goal of wanting to be better than leechers in the world.
better than wasting time thinking about everything that's pointless to be troubled about.
---

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

[ the stars shimmered like they should. ]

Today's valentine and everyone is so excited about it huh.
geog test was horrible but I think I'm able to pass.
Ohwells and and aarthi bought me this huge huge gummi bottle which I've said I wanted!

Things are turning for the better.
Haha zhengjie & pengyang got fooled just now.
&jieting like little kid got what she wanted laughs like mads.

Aah tomorrow's amaths test it sickens just to know that.
Hope i'll go for the vball match tmr and I won't have to take it!
But anyway LPS on friday!
Looking forward to it!

Okay go practice amaths now.
I LOVE MATH MAN.

I hope you like what I gave.
&thanks for being my valentine today.

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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

[ &I won't have any other craves if I had you as my guardian angel. ]

Hah what a day.
Physics test was so&so.
&It rained again.

Not looking forward to tomorrow anymore.

-sighs.

so much for waiting huh huh haha never mind it's okay.

it's not the worst situation either,
ohwell off to study for hellish geography!


It felt horrible.
It won't go away.

Monday, February 12, 2007

[ &it doesn't matter whether it rained today or not,
for deep inside it's stormy everyday. ]


Yeah back and super tired.
Emaths is like so wtf!
Hoh &it rained made the surroundings so cold cold cold,
-SNIFFS.

Sure to flunk today's chemistry test.
ohwells , can't possibly do anything to save it anyway.
lucks for tomorrw's physics test though.

YAYNESS looking forward to wed!
&LPSLPSLPS ON FRIDAYY.
alrights off I go to do more important stuff.
weird but I'm starting to love homework!


we made a pact.
&now it doesn't matter anymore.

even talking seemed impossible.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Wohh Marchen Awakens Romance episode 18th already.
&Prison Break!

Didn't managed to stay up and watch Step Up though.
Eeeeeeeee don't worry I'll watch it as soon as I get back home later.

Added lyrics for hypnotised.
Darn can't find the codings to interchange the background picture.
&Almost finishing with barney's!

Movie on tuesday~
Alrights off I go to study group already.
Hope statistics would be better today.


h you hadn't been as delirious as now

dEDIT-IN 10:22PM

Back from gombak!
TSK just realised I've studied the wrong thing again .
Tomorrow's chemistry &I ended up finishing waves and sound like hell.
-.-

Cheryl Lee NAIMA cheer up okay?
CNY CNY CNY!~
&hmm double f'd:
WED WED WED!

owights off I go to cramming chemistry alrd.
TSK this is so irritating.
after I realise there's alot to cover there tooooo ARGHS.

not like you didn't notice,
just you didn't want to.

Prison Break-ed.
Amazing plot.
More more more!

Marchen Awakens Romance-ed.
Funny anime.
&more more more!

Sky High-ed/A Series Of Unfortunate Events-ed too.
Not impressive but worth watching.

Hmm pretty much stayed home and watched all kinds of shows and anime the whole day.
DN Angel, Chrno Crusade, Digimon etc..
I guess that's the best thing to do when in solitude.

I really wished to be there.
Too bad the timing isn't just there,
&I doubt they wanted me to be either.


I don't say doesn't mean I'm ignorant.
I don't cry doesn't mean I'm happy.
I don't ask doesn't mean I'm not keen to know.
&I don't stay doesn't mean I've wanted to leave. 

Ohwells Step Up & more MAR later!
At least let a stayhome-saturday be worthwhile.

Friday, February 09, 2007