Thursday, March 29, 2007

Monday, March 26, 2007

emaths was so damn easy!


haha I hadn't had such a good laugh like during amaths just now.
though lee was kinda irritated yet can't seemed to stop.

yayness new book!
&compos to be written.
otherwise i'll be having restless nights like everyday,
thinking about R=V/I or lactobacillius while turning here and turning there.


it's okay to be left out now (:
yes feel tired definitely.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

back, whoah eyes damn goggy.
I'm about to finish my MISERY, just around 30 pages more.
can't wait to see the ending huh.
annie is so typically sane.

watched mr.bean eh?
total geek & hilarious show.
ohwell after the show rained heavily,
& i was wondering whether I should catch hitcher at je as well.

katharine mcphee takes the place of jojo when she gets old!
haha she earned her runner-up place in american idol indeed.
I liked her better than terry.

I made full use of my yesterday,
finishing till the current episode 20 of PRISON BREAK season 2.
resuming chrnocrusade/elementar gerad.

MAR is like so longggg
they shouldnt make it so anticipating if they're gonna drag it furtherrrr
bleach & dgrayman latest episodes are out,
so I didn't wait to watch them either.
haha ohwell don't worry I remembered that I need to finish loads of animes.

messed with alot of themes,
so my phone looked super devilish,
and now jackjack is in a messy state of blue,
that looked either dangerous or just super cool.

haha having sooo much fun doesn't meant that I didn't keep time away for studying okay!
I took my monday, tuesday, friday and weekly sunday off for studying,
&wednesday, saturday for leisure.
yeah super exhausting, all of which at mac.

speaking of which, I think imma gonna get fat!
I had been cruising in at macdonalds all around cos of studying,
that I didn't notice I was putting on weight!
goshhhh plus I sakae-ed on friday, damn.

sports day was .. wheezy.
with the greenbean frenzy.
haha then the sakae, and study, and stitch-shoe keychain!
whoah saw them selling the whole set of 8 at 30 dollars,
but really it costed 2bucks for each turn though at toysrus.

fanny is so in love with stitch.
haha I've just realised I've become so random.
then bought finger-xiaobing with her for jieting.
haha I think she liked it bah.

have had detention on tuesday.
hmm actually it was fun!
and weird because I had actually was told to stay til 4,
but then I was told to go earlier after I finished my work,
and the mdm tay in the d&t room told me to leave once I want to.
-.-

WELL i'm a good kid so I finished my duties and left then.
haha there's detention tomorrow again.
hope mr.ang will see through it like on tuesday.

yeah cut my hair,
and mrlim warned me about my shoes.
whatthehell I highly doubted that he will come find me to change it back.
ohwell I'm gonna stay for biolesson tomorrw.
I've missed the rest of them on the week before the hols,
and that was the last week for 1,2 &3.

I hope I wun get late like I did for sports day.
sickening lah, tsk.
ohwell imma just gonna finish my MISERY,
then off to dreamland I go.

OHYEAH FOB'S THNKS FR TH MMRS VIDEO WAS OUT.
yeah as original, pete was like so ooh.
haish now tmr have geog&emaths test.
&gotta find someday to return shih's bike.
stupid lala.



I'M SO OVER IT!

that goddamn one line that speaks almost the whole conclusion.

so true.


THE HITCHER PLEASE!
&TMNT, HAUNTED SCHOOL, MEET THE ROBINSONS et centra.


...
whole new resolutions beginning
with this ending
thus I carefully wish that I wouldn't MUSTN'T give a damn.

not to forget forgotten.

don't make me feel guilty, cry, forget &remember.

I'm not a robot.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Ohwell guess it's back to blogging for now.


I had a long day & I don't give a damn sadly.


hurt to numb, numb to hurt.
done.

Ain't that stupid to not realise,
though they did well in hiding it

besides no matter how callous this all had been,
I don't wish to be involved in this never-ending your fault my fault game.

&you do realise I won't be aimlessly searching for a hope,
when it had been so obvious.
I'm not a fool, and even time waits for no man.


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Monday, March 19, 2007

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Apparently, I keep my mind off definitely for good now.
don't matter to them so they don't to me either.

&fuck you sucker.
I'll surpass you someday, you'll see.



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Tuesday, March 13, 2007

[ those shreds will collapse, I'll vouch. ]

ohwell I guess I'm just blogging for this one day through the holidays
and then I won't blog till next monday.

Hmm on friday huh, the last day of school.
Yeahyeah, gotten whole loads of trouble because of being late on that particular day.
Don't remind me about it,
I feel so fucked up remembering everything.
had to run 4rounds the sch compound in the morning,
And now I'm having three times detention than what I originally had.

CCA was terrible, being so messy and everything AS USUAL.
To be frank, I don't know what the hell how everything is and will be going.
Things are becoming more and more complex,
And both aarthi&jill don't seemed to be helping.

Well not that I'm mad at them for being ignorant,
but it's just the workloads,
suddenly seems to overwhelm me alittle bit.
so well after cca I went to have lunch/dinner with aarthi,
then after that borrowed her Friends VCDs from her
and they are so awesome that I can't stop laughing and laughing and rewatching.


bubblewrapping:

right now,
I don't have to listen to you.

in your situation,
please be more conscious and wary of how your life is instead of minding mine.

---

HMMS on saturday let's see now.
spent the whole day at home watching Chrno Crusade,
Prison Break, Friends, BlackCat, D.Gray-Man etc.
because really it was my sister's birthday!

yeahyeah black forest cake!
&red wine tsk my mom thought I would be drunk from one glass of wine.
Ohyeah I've finished my blogskin for tania along with layout,
because on that day I had SOSOSO MUCH free time I just have had nothing better to do.

FILLINGRESOLUTIONS-.BLOGSPOT.COM!
Tania I don't owe you anything alr right!
Glad you liked it.
Ooh and I changed my blogsong to bubblewrap!


bubblewrapping:
what was lost
unrecovered

don't give a rat's ass
at least enough for me to clear my mind
about who he really is

---

Sunday have had study group!
Ooh yeah discussed JC routes with shihchiang.
YEAH OUR BETS && COMMON GOAL-ACJC ALRIGHTS.
you better do well okay ;DD.

Then yeah went to meet jingwen,
&I had brainblock!
SERIOUS brainblock!
but nevermind 'cos fiza&cheryl joined us soon,
along with kettle that is.
so statistics WERE better HUH jingwen!

Haha fiza noisy lah!
laughs like mad can.
she and her humour getting all of us smiled up.
ohwell only managed to did only a few amaths before leaving,
with cheryl's mom car hitch.


bubblewrapping:
-none-

---

THEN, monday,
which was technically yesterday.
Had cca meeting in the morning.
Yeahyeah I swear taxies are so hard to get lah in 8plus.

So travelled to school,
Had comlab signing in problems,
Mr. Lam was there and he wasn't helping the situations I had,
Members having nothing to do and me the only senior handling all the duties alone.

alrights at least got half of the noticeboard thing done.
with the burning of the paper aye bryan?
he seemed really hyper today lah!
ooh and jaslyn's 'songs' playing out loud.
haha those lighters melt one by one~

Then right, hmmm I left school,
and homed watching prisonbreak,
not long before leaving house again for study group with aarthi.
had it at bbmac so well wasn't complaining.

&after that we watched primeval!
okay lah had wanted to watch hannibal rising.
OKAY &THE THING IS I was so surprised that the counter lady only checked our year,
so we ACTUALLY COULD get in for the NC16 show.

But the OHSOTOOBAD thing is the last timing were 4plus.
&then at the point of time it was around ..6.45?
ohwell so went to catch primeval instead under my family's recommendations,
'cos they went to watch it on sunday without me you see.

ookay this was one PG movie that got me startled during parts of the movie,
that I find it difficult to go to the bathroom throughout.
so yeah after that went to get a few snacks before heading home,
and watching the second batch of Friends aarthi passed me earlier on.

so well right now i'm typing.
ohyeah I'M SO fucked up that my younger sister got a new handphone at the age of 9.
whatthehell how come I never got an handphone when I was her age?

added alot of new songs to my archives,
especially avril lavigne's girlfriend!
okay suddenly addicted to it like so much!
&gym class heroes' cupid's stronghold.

hmm tomorrow don't know what plans yet.
perhaps studying at je library til 12plus?
then go watch HANNIBAL RISING with aarthi!
whoah two movies at a go isn't that going to be loads of fun.
then perhaps after that go join cheryl&peeps at wcp mac for studying then.


bubblewrapping:
really, really
it doesn't matter anymore

theway I see it
your final stand is to really forget all good times we ever had
start anew

yeah I hate you for that
but it's okay 'cos it's normal
getting over the fact that everything in the past meant nothing to you afterall.

yeah if those above don't matter
you should be getting back to your life feeling exceptionally okay
feeling absolutely no remorse
no intentions to ever speak to me again.

really i'm the baby from the start
haha and great job being the mature adult making all the right decisions.

---

STILL WAITING FOR THAT ONE REPLY.
&yayness I have to go back school on wednesday&friday!
so I'm free on thursday who wanna jio me out?
BACK TO INTENSIVE STUDYING!
I'm falling back behind my study planner.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

[ make this your final decision then. ]


nothing much to blog.
and ain't gonna blog till I feel like blogging.

intensive studying throughout the holidays!

Thursday, March 08, 2007

[ leaving me with nothing but more options. ]

don't actually feel blogging but,
feels weird if I don't.
aiyoh this is so annoying that it suddenly became my daily routine again.

school sucks today as usual.
no had nothing to do with lessons nor teachers.
I don't know why but I was having a terrible mood all day.
But then I can react like I'm fine so nobody noticed.

ohwell I think I'm going to be murdered by mr.nur for not coming up with a valid reason as promised for skipping detention/
aiyah tsk lah don't really care either.

went home earlier than usual,
but studying was cancelled.
haish have nothing much to say lah.



if he didn't exist
smiles will fade
memories will wilther
words will be left unsaid

if he didn't exist
none happens
hearts whole
eyes function like eyes

if he didn't exist
smiles will return
forgotten
by laughter


he didn't exist
i made him to.

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

[ the only love suddenly became her only hate. ]


Hmm today was such a mixed up day.
First with those new shoes people said it's obvious & going to be caught.
but I didn't! heh.

well throughout the day as tired as always.
yeah fell asleep during recess.
then then during lessons eyelids feeling super heavy.
can't concentrate~

&after school went to see matches bboys and bgirls.
hmm don't wanna talk about that but anyway,
ohwells healthchecks coming up,
and common test week after holidays.
hoorah.

hmm then after school went to see wzones bball matches.
am I supposed to feel pissed or what with mythili's attitude.
but after that went back school and played vball with peeps.

then we had this meet-the-parents thing.
by then it was like 12 whole hours the whole batch of us are out of houses lah.
gotten back the results,
and surprisingly I passed everything!

2A1s, 2B3s & 3C5s for everything.
And B3 for bio and chinese somemore.
I was totally omgness lah.
happy like siao.

Jill, aarthi ;
remember our pact alrights!
hmmmm whatelse went to jurong point to have dinner with peeps.
then took 187 home after the long day.

ooh tomorrow have detention.
goodness lah just because I was late for school.
Gahh I feel super tired going to turn in soon already.




doesn't concern me
shouldn't concern me


affection
bastards
came along and spoilt everything

like glass
smooth as air
fragile as smiles

glass
those pieces hurt those angelic wings
of faith
of
nothingless

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

[ won't go on even if time stops for that moment. ]

I feel exhausted lately and I wonder why.
Haha went tour tour all around with shih today,
he poor thing lah for tomorrow.

speaking of which,
it's so sucky lah that theres so little time for breaks and stuff.
tomorrow's parents' meeting but then everything is so messy.
ooh and I don't even know whether my parents would be coming.

ohwell went travelling to places and instead of accompanying shih I bought new shoes along with him.
jurong point is so packed ehh like because of rainnnn.
thanks alot to him for the bike and for the time.
and what tireness searched through the whole afternoon/evening for that dear pair of shoes.

duty calls,
off to study for now.
hope I don't miss the critital time later.


sad to see
sad to hear
sad to feel

throw it all away
into those holes of black

they will always be waiting till the boy falls into it


can life stop being so annoying
can time stop life
can love stop time
can hate stop love
can hate stop hate
can life stop hate

in deep wounds,
so painful it pains to heal.

Monday, March 05, 2007

[ forgotten before remembering everything from those words ]


a few steps
towards you
those brittle shoes

a few steps
away from me
away from my few steps towards you

a hundred steps
a thousand steps
you're out of reach

one step
to make it stop
to hold your hand
perhaps


the last step
to say goodbye
so we don't stop
at these few steps




Getting over both of you,
just so frustrating,
like i'm dying.
like you're watching me dying.


but anyway, happy 16th bornday mrsbarney!

Sunday, March 04, 2007

[ &I'll be, your crying shoulder, I'll be love's suicide ]


TODAY IS LEENAIMA'S SIXTEEN!
countdown-ed huh!
haha my gift looked adorable!

ohyeah yesterday went kc's house too.
his brother is super active.
too bad has to leave even when I didn't stayed for long.

then travelled to leenaima's house on cab.
not only me though ,
and then then a lot of people came!
haha ms seet was there, mrstan was there, ms yong was there,
and pretty much a lot of lps peeps!

okay lah wenxiang and brenda are turning to gamble addicts.
and I can tell who didn't go!
hmm shilin, qien, pamela etcetc.
ohwells.

HAHAHA SMILE MORE NAIMA!
YOU CAN WATCH NC16 MOVIES OPENLY ALRD!
;D;D
haiyohs going to study group after like sooooo long.
let's hope that statistics would be better this time round!


EDITIN!11:11PM,

I'm back.
gahh the house seems so empty right now because my family all went to hougang area TSK.
ohwells HAPPY CHERYL'S DAY once again!

ooh I think my brain feels very drained using it so much today.
well haha I think it wants to match my sore fingers huh!
hmmm i'm falling back on my study planner ee this is so frustrating lah!
nevermind today is last day of CNY =hongbao opening time!
no worries!


OHYEAH &YIHUI'S JC JOKES!
Q: How many RJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: 4 whole faculties. One fac to design the new bulb, one fac to test it out, one fac to market it and one guy to write a stupid proposal about lightbulbs.

Q: How many HCJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school.....to compete with RJC.........

Q: How many VJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school.......one to screw it in and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners to give him/her support.

Q: How many NJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: NO LIGHT STILL CAN STUDY!!!!!

Q: How many AJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: They're too busy trying to be one of the top 5 JCs...

Q: How many ACJC students does it take to change lightbulb??
A: None......they use all their money to employ YJC to do it for them.

Q: How many YJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None.....only one teacher to tell them what a lightbulb is in the first place and to demonstrate (how do you think they're able to change it for AC?)

Q: How many CJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: They'd prefer it darker.......... (hmmm...*raise eyebrow*)......

Q: How many JJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None......Their physics is so bad that they make the male teacher cry.....

Q: How many TPJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: Would they bother??

Q: How many MJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None. They're too busy studying. trying not to get expelled..

Q: How many SAJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None.....they believe in praying for it.

Q: How many NYJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None.....they are still using oil lamps.

Q: How many SRJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: Huh, wat litebarb ...

Q: How many IJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: They're Innovians, they will figure something out...

Q: How many MI students does it take to change the lightbulb?
A: None. They think they are very bright already....


I can't say I'm not blamed for what happened.
One mouth caused three heartaches.
And a whole loads of desperation and worries.
I'm such a bastard huh.

other than that,
your absence.
&now I know.
because everybody shows,
so where should I go?

Saturday, March 03, 2007

[ nomatter how hard this is going, it's going to be meaningless. ]

haha i'm finally back huh!
yeah hmm on thursday ah,
mom gave me a free facial not bad huh.
and plus the high frequency thing is super painful lah those electric on your face.
i'll have to admit my mom went like mads when I agreed with my sister that we should take pictures~

hmmm on friday let's see what happened on friday then.
i didn't bring physics notes nor textbook,
and the amazing thing is that MR TAN DIDN'T NOTICED,
though i was sitting at the front!

haha then fathimah concluded i've had a fever during maths.
I can't concentrate at all lah arghh.
then mr lee came to talk to me and saw an ultra embarrasing doodling i did.
shit the hell bah.

editorial was kinda horrible for some reasons.
partially because of my sickness I guess.
and then the slackiness which I seemed to be getting from my babies.
and the most infruiating thing is that mr.lam is going to be here next week.
what a killjoy.

at night went to tanu's house.
aah we reminiscence alot of stuff,
like their old house,
where we used to swim in that small pool outside the door.

garr i miss those days.
ooh yesterday i was the barboy !
make wine for adults haha!
and then then i gulped down 2 and a half glasses of red wine pro rights!

OHYEAH JEREMY'S GOOGLE EARTH IS SUPER COOL LAH!
WE FOUND MY HOUSE AND THEIR HOUSE FROM SATELITE'S VIEW OMGNESS COOL LIKE HELL!
ookays later going to kc's and CHERYL LEE NAIMA'S HOUSE!
CHERYL LEE NAIMA'S BIRTHDAY PARTY WO0TS!



when things fall apart,
when shallowness turns deep,
i'll still be standing here.

and the people around will leave long ago.




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Thursday, March 01, 2007

I'm such a loser.
What was my ambition of becoming better ;


I don't want to hurt anyone.
I don't want to matter.
I'm sorry, but I no longer have any antics to smile for.

I still can't get over the fact that nothing in the past mattered to you at all.