ARGH. Stupid me.

Anyway, I've just got home. Was like so frantic during emaths paper today. Last question was like so difficult. But once I got home, I redid the question on my mirror(with a marker), guess what? I SOLVE IT. DAMN. WHY DIDNT I SOLVE IT LIKE DURING THE EXAM. Argh. Bye bye marks.

Anyway I'm just blogging this short entry 'cos would want to keep this jaded memory in my blog, so next time I can see to learn my mistakes. ARGH.

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Following up, I stayed at home. Till this very great friend of mine came online. Aarthi. She talked about a friend that went to a SAP school, and neglected her as a result. Really, I can feel her insecurity. She brought up quite a fuss about losing me too. Well, I assured her that nothing is going to come between us. Definitely.

And then. She finally gave an answer to the question I gave her a number of weeks ago. I had this premonition that I'm going to die soon. So I've asked her about how she feels if I really disappear from earth. She hadn't really answered my question, saying that NOTHING like that will ever happen. But I wanted something less-typical. I wanted a reply which is less delicate and more definited.

Thats what she really said.

"...... I have an anwer for ur question....about what I would do if u died(Which u WON"T),

If You died tml, I probably won't believe it. I wuld think that my best f. was playing a joke on me

But when it becomes real, a part of my soul leaves me....becuz u are part of it

Of course, tears are next...and if someday I do move on, it would be only because I know u are watching over me...."

I was honestly touched. I really wanna say that THAT is really nice. But that would be something wrong. I feared that I'm going to perish soon, so by thanking her, I'm not really making my truce about the dying I saw in my dream. Well there's that.

Friendship. Strange little thingie yeah?

Bells embraced charming chimes.
She halted the footsteps in the snow.
Tears sprung from the teary yet ravishing eyes.

He must leave.
A curse that is irreversible.
A hex that he must abide.

She grabbed his hand.
Placed a locket in the palm.
And clenched it to a fist.

But his soul is already dispatching.
Bringing about some inferiority.
Yes he was on his way.

And someday.
He will come back.
Smiling and waving from a distance.

_shawn.