Aah no more personal here le lah I guess.


& anyway, I'm damn frustrated at the com lag, at how myhomework's undone, at how at almost everything.

But the good thing is, shamini the dear promised to let me copy her work tomorrow!

I suck at 7 hand poker, but gary kept wanting me to play. Sore loserrrrrrr HAHAHAH joking.



I want to speak but words came out wrong.
& there's the lag again.


DOUGIE POYNTER OMG.


note. feeling very strange & very weird.

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My mind is going to wire up if I don't get some S L E E P. But I hadn't finished my studying alright.

My tags are gone like I don't know why. Maybe it's hinting at me to remove it, which I would be gladly be happy to.


Er, I'm deeply resentful at seeing Ms Koh smile at me today. Oh how the guilt roared inside. I bet she's super disappointed.


---
a lighted candle
how it wanted to stop melting
but how many depended on him for warm

a dying candle
how it wanted to stop shedding
but how he loved to help

a small candle
how it wanted to revert being tall & righteous
but how he knew he won't be appreciat-


he's blown out.


Everyone got some unsaid things they definitely wanna say.
A candle is just like a friendship
But once it's melted, there won't be anyway to bring back the wax that holds it way up high.
---



I wanna change link soon. Tanntheheart has to go away.

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Hey there delilah,

Is there a way to not get hurt by what others do?


What is the real definition of friends?

Are they your lifelong soulmates who really cares about what you do, makes you feel at ease when you share something deep, doesn't run away when you get cornered by your fears, always knowing what you think about & made you want to care for her/him the same way he/she cared for you?

Or are they really just pathetic people who survives each day depending upon you, insensitive about your opinions, shares the bad things with you but keeps the good things to him/herself, wants attention by hanging out with you, making you feel confused about every little thing & treats you like a fashion statement to wear you on or put you away in her big wardrobe full of many other friends same like you?

What is the correct explanation of the existence of friends anyway. Are they supposed to be there to make you cry, or cry with you? Are they there to laugh at you, or make you laugh?


There are two different types of friends which I can derive from everyday scenarios.

One is the one with a high profile, come & go, & treat you nice because you are of some value to her/his infamy that only can last as long as you are no longer the trend to a popularity, which then where you will get to be tossed aside until you're of use again. One who seeks company, & you happened to be there for her. One who refuses to listen attentively, always changing the subject, always insensitively hurting everyone around her/him.

The other, is the one with a low profile. A buddy which you can count on to be there for you whenever whereever. Not to just spill your unhappiness at, but also offered to be shared his/her unhappiness at the same time. She/he is conscious that with her/his every little actions, & how big it might be to hurt you. She/he is willing to listen & tell at the same time. He/she knows everytime what you're thinking & argues about stuff which she/he thinks are right, though to only lead you to the correct path.


Why do I feel so insecure & disgusted by everyone around me?


There are some people who judge others; they handpick those who seemed worthy enough, & leave out all the rest. Isn't that selfish?

& to make matter worse, they delibrately tell you how much fun they have with what they replace you with, a way to gloat at your loneliness, about your regretfulness to choosing such a person to be your pal.


However, I think that they are the ones who are truly dependant. They are so tame that once they lose everything they have, they will start regretting why they had do such despicable things in the first place.

They are the losers.


Everyone is consistently afraid to lose something. However, the real fear of they is that they will lose themselves. That's why they become so vulnerable. They are not confident of what they are. What they do. That's why they want friends to be there. To channel all their insecurity to something else, to desperately try forget about it & find something else to lose.


& I am deeply sorry to whoever I'm insensitive to. Even so, I won't at least forgive myself. Because I know I'm constantly hurting those that care about me, whoever that care about what I do.

Whenever I post about something about what I do. I feel awful. Because I know that this will lead to the misery of all those that care for me, that they are unappreciated & they are not important to me.

Though that is not true. Yes that is not true.


For those who truly feel upset about what I post about. I'm sorry for being such a disgusting fellow.



Thank you delilah, for making feel so comfortable expressing what I feel about.

I feel almost alive.





Tomorrow's back to school man. Though I don't have any undone homework(THERE YOU GO LASTMINUTE SUCKERS!), I'm still awake because I can't stop rereading order of phoenix!





Be glad
Be appreciative
Be attentive
Be happy

Smile
To laugh.
So that you know you're blessed with something others don't have.

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I'm back posting!


First, I'd have to say that my saving $$ resolve thing is officially off. Resisting not to save is so terribly irritating can.

So yes it is off.


Yesterday we had this class bbq at taman green. Somebody had me chasing her who was on a bike, while holding a bbq-ed prawn & almost fallen out slippers. So nice of her ar.

Alot of class people came surprisingly even those that I didn't guess would come down did. We had a very nice chat & nice activities & nice foooood especially when helping kenghuat to marinate chicken wings because I massaged them in the wrong direction & they fell out -.-

Even mr lee & when he was leaving I helped shenn by asking mr lee to send her off.

Sucks so much for no kingdom hearts.

Actually I don't know what to say about everything but it was fun.



& today, went to celebrate aarthi's birthday. Shit hell I didn't get to eat subway in the morning. Then jill's dad came to pick me up & went to buy her birthday card before heading to that restaurant.

I feel so odd one out being the only chinese guy to appear -.-

Then went to catch fantastic four. Haha there I was telling everybody the plot since I know what's going to happen. Went to take neoprints. When everyone left, left me & aarthi & we go watch nancy drew.

Nancy drew is super awesome! Bloody lah jingwen sucks for not waiting last time for POTC credits. THERE WAS an extra scene behind lorrrrrrr.

Oh & harry potter trailer is so aaaahhhh~ Reread the 5th book! I miss the DA! Oh & I finished the 6th book two days ago again.


Happy birthday lah aarthi.


I actually wanted to post more about stuff like the charleston firefighters' honourable deaths & stuff but very lazy & stinky right now.


Though I admit that I'm too into MCFLY(omg DOUGIE POYNTER!) now to be into BABIES...

BUT SHIH CHIANG'S NEPHEW IS SO ADORABLE. okay so random but anyway.

I think I wanna watch transformers, harry potter, & ocean's thirteen. Not sure about surf's up & ratatoutie(jasmine says its something like that) because got some bad vibes about these two. AIYOH SEE FIRST LAH.

Anyway my saving resolve also off liao mah so scared for what. LOL

---
It's like watching my own movie, only I'm not in it.

Something of my theme
Something of my confessions
Something of my execution
Something taken out of me irreplaceable

Actions changes but people don't.
---

Have loads of pictures but as original, I'm super lazy.

Back to study group tomorrow. Missed two weeks of it already. Aah stomachache.


THINGS ARE GOING VERY WRONG WITH JACKJACK LIKE NOW EVERYTHING I TYPE TURNS A LITTLEE AS I THINK ABOUT MY TITLE OMG HORRIBLE.

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Mass replies.

tania Hmm seems pretty familiar leh. Who ar. I think must be an adorable guy whose name starts with an S.
CHERYL Eh I saw that black ball from the start already can.
Huiteng! ZKWJHN!
jasmine Why you call yourself? I thought your name is ahlam?
Vivian Will do.
mervin* Fast fast find! I'm dying here.
jw Haish why the fucker fucking don't want to fuck off? Haha. Oh & I just saw your message. -.-
jialin LOL "bian dan kuan, ban deng chang...." :D
!HERMAN OH YAH where's our MCFLY V.S. FOB POST. Scared ahhhh hurh.


I think it's all that.


Tomorrow's bbq. Saving $$ resolve please.

Have to finish harry potter by tomorrow.

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The feeling sucks so badly.
Like the fact that everything gets to you & how helpless you can be.

One day when we're completely devoid of what we are, maybe things will turn for the better?
I should have stop believing long ago.



---
how reckless
footsteps to the nomad world

shrieks
loud fucking shrieks
like your heart shedding to nothing

to be perfect
to be whole
to be appreciated
to laugh & to smile & to giggle & to chuckle till bleeded.

fucking humans
selfish they can be
refusing to forget how they all walked away to every tragic, though littest things

---

Because how much I wanted to tell you how much I hoped time will turned back.
You agreed to be there but silent. That I know.


editin at 9.10pm

I don't know who to trust. Sucks to know everything. I feel like collasping.
Being emo is definitely the conceptual of solitude. Feelings so strong yet not being expressed.

Fuck life & fuck mind can.


& It's funny when people read & don't know a single shit. It's okay I don't wish anyone to be confused & disgusted or even irritated. I don't know who cares but I know I've started to treat myself badly.

I don't even know how to use or even say thankyou anymore.


21moredays to deadline of two goals.

Reading book listening to emosongs. I don't know how to make people smile. Maybe I've become selfish, but isn't the world also like that. Aahh I don't know anymore.



I wished I could answer I don't know to every question I had to answer.

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[pardon my super neat & tidy & formal post; I just woke up you see.]

Oh my god damn funny.

I slept at 3plus yesterday playing 7-hand poker with jieting. Then woke up today at 7.30am. Because I was confident that I'd be able to wake up later, I went back to sleep thinking it was too early.

I'd this super weird dream which I don't have much recollection about though. Thinking.


Oh yah the scene was midway in my school hall but also in my primary school outside canteen area. Strangely when you go up from my primary school canteen you'll reach my secondary school hall. There was this talk which was like super boring don't know by who. The students all seated in diagional manner like hahaha.

Then suddenly the scene changed to this place (aunt's house? in the dream it was) where me & my cousins were playing mahjiong talking about our childhood.

Then suddenly the place turned into balcony & my opponents were replaced by my aunts & stuff. Then they chatted about how drunk they were when they had adults night-out (yes strangely the mahjiong was gone), & sitting by the table was a few more guests which I can't recognise.

Yarh my er, cousin-in-law started saying how she always smokes & stuff & suddenly she smoked and smoked & the whole place become puffed in smoke a lot of smoke damn lot of smoke but the adults all don't actually noticed until the guests started coughing.

Damn funny though I wasn't laughing in the dream. The uncle of mine who was the father-in-law to that cousin-in-law told her to like stop smoking but like she stonned there with her hand holding the cigarette on her leg with the smoke still penetrating. Finally as if the cigarette died there wasn't anymore smoke then my uncle apologised to the guests like "paiseh. paiseh" repetitively.


Then I woke up, by jieting's message at 8.58am.

My mind felt super heavy like it wasn't intending to awake at this time. Though it's kinda late.(*super late, I'm supposed to be at school by 9.) Jieting told me not to go school anymore since I am so late. Haha there I was preaching about like I wanted to go school later & stuff though not this late.

..........................................................

Er yah & kinda explains why I'm blogging at this hour.

Haha.

Funney.

Mom was there nagging saying how I took 'free money' because I asked for pocket $$ from dad yesterday but ended up not able to go school.


Omg I'm getting some weird vibes here. Oh well since the world don't need me anymore, back to sleep. Don't sms me I'm too lazy to change the message tone which is damn irritating.


editin at 11.46pm.

SAVING MONEY RESOLVE has totally allowed me to barr myself from spending money eh!


So I went out today on a rush walking all the way to gombak to get ps2 from angzhihao. Hmmm I think kinda dumb because forget to get games so went back all the way to his house to get, then just now realised no memory card.

But anyway, went jurong east de kpool to meet with essentials but the bitch counter disallowed me to go play pool because I'm still unsixteen for another 21 days.


So we decided to find another outlet & chose lot 1. Hmmm saw fanny & bunch today. Happy birthday ah zhimin. Your hand dirty LOL.

On the mrt, there's this stinking bangala who kept staring at me which is totally annoying. Shit the hell. Herman they all laughed till beng.


Then WHOAH I played pool against the pro-est person in essentials & beat him twice. Especially the last unexpected black ball. HAHAHAHA. Amazing me.

& I don't have to pay a single shit because I'm so getting treats. :D

Then we went to cafe galilee at je to eat before heading home. Yay the flag day song please!

Going to school tomorrow.



HAHA I'M SO DARN HYPER RIGHT NOW for no reason.
I WANT KINGDOM HEARTS KINGDOM HEARTS KINGDOM HEARTS!

Yeah, spending resolve is still on. BRING IT ON THE DAYS TO COME.


Happy birthday darling!

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Oh I've got some stuff I hope to say before I start my today's happening.

tocynthia,
I hadn't say anything & thus please stop talking as if you know me. I told you it gets irritating.


So ANYWAY

We went to cousin winnie's house warming...
&I SAW MY ADORABLE CHOCOLATE TODAYYYY!! ;D

Omg I swear I wanna own a puppy like him.


Played x-box & mahjiong. Hahaha I think right outside the two adults table play de 3 rounds = our one round lah! We are so amateur!


Then after that we played 789. Haha it's a game where you put a glass on the table & roll dices.

When you get 7, you're supposed to like add more water up to your preferences. Then 8 you're supposed to drink half of the stake, & 9 you're supposed to drink all of the stake. Then if you throw a pair, it meant reverse.

So we played.

& HAHAHA whenever it's my or jeremy's turn we'll both add the water to the brim & so lucky never get 9 pleaseeee HAHA poor tania & tammy drink sooooo much.


Oh yeah did I mention how we verdict on who loses? The first to go to the toilet.

So you can imagine how much we drank, refilling 1.5l bottle of water again & again, then enduring even after there's no more water & the game ends.


Haha everyone's gonna be wetting their beds tonight.


Went home soon. Nice place winnie've got. Near corporation primary.


I'M ON A SAVING $$ RESOLVE CURRENTLY.
PLEASE DO NOT JIO ME OUT OR ANYTHING, COS I WANNA SAVE 250BUCKS BY JULYTENTH.


Familiar eh it's my birthday. Gahhhh in 22 more days! Can't wait to buy.

ERM ANYONE INTERESTED IN X-BOX CONSOLE SELLING AT $250? COMES WITH TWO CONTROLLERS & GAMES. CONTACT ME AT 97601307.

Ahh back to study camp tomorrowwww.

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HAHA I almost forgot that tomorrow's father's day.


Yay I think people can call me superman! I slept at 5.30 last night & woke up in morning like 7 to go escape with tania. LOL so deprived of my sleep on the train then so darn trying to keep myself awake.


TAMMY is so damn cute lah hahahaha -winks at tania.



Reached at around 9plus & ate subway. Actually, it was only me eating because they all don't want to. Whatthehell.

We went to escape & there is this bigbig group standing outside. Turned out that there's this family day event at escape. But anyway. We started with the lying on the front thing & then go-kart. HAHA I'm so damn fast can like I'm the first to leave still can overtake the last person(which was coincidentaly tania).

Err trying to recall. Hmm, oh yah. Then we went to sit viking & both our first times sitting inverter. I laughed on both the rides, watching people around me scream like crazy.

During intervals we ate food bought from the food stall in the middle of the theme park. So anyway I was quite disappointed lah, since the panasonic indoor rollercoaster is no more. They said that there was an incident last time. SOBB.

Then we went haunted.

I think the rules are ridiculous. Click to enlarge. You will find it damn funny can.

Oh & the pepsi spinning thing was closed too. So was rainbow unfortunately.

But anyway we went went&wild & IT WASN'T VERY WET SITTING AT THE BACK LAH HOR. Sat for two times exchanging positions. Tania was constantly screaming. As in -AAAAAAAHHH x2x2x2. In rhythm to my chemical romance's mama.

Her screaming was so bad that when we went to sit viking a second time, the guy infront instead of enjoying himself, had to cover his ears & beg tania to stop screaming. HAHAHA damn funny the scene.




Weather wasn't good till a drizzle became a bigger downpour. We left soon because tania they all had to leave for her grandma's birthday celebration.

Nice cousin outing eh. There were more pictures but tania only sent me some. I bet the girl's having fun eating chinese delicacies now.

So I returned home & actually arranged alot of plans. Like movie with barney, gary; cheryl's house; study group with jingwen. But after I reached home I was so damn exhausted that just collapsed & slept till 7plus. LOL.

Anyway my other cousin which is going to be married in July is currently at my house. Gahhh tomorrow going to her new house for housewarming. Shit how am I going to break the news to jingwen that I can't make it again tomorrow.


Haha these few days keep listening to my music archive in alphabetical order. Alot of new albums can: maroon five, good charlotte plus more.

---
Be strong,
Because she will need you stronger than what you are.


There are always two sides to anything.
But people always mistaken it to be one-sided.
& thus they miscalculated the other side & turned out to be so utterly wrong.
---




OH CHOCOLATE OH CHOCOLATE YOU'RE SO FRICKING ADORABLE.



editin next day at 12.44pm


AHHH I have all of MCFLY'S SONGS! RAWRRRRRR ALL KNEEL DOWN NOW IN ENVY!

GAhh I'm having trouble finding ps2 kh gamessss since mervin's at camp and shenn's kh is with jeanne. WAHLAO why I'm doomed to something like this.

But I'd love azh forever for lending me his ps2! HAHAHA. NICE MR.BIGSHOT!


Yah going to cousin's housewarming later. Oh & happy daddie's day to daddy.

Labels: outings, pictures

I think I suddenly suck at bowling so badly to strike/spare at the start of a game but still only score bare 100 SUCKS MAN.


Went to gombak shortly & stoned there for don't know how long with bigshot. Jolin came & bigshot left. Jw came but left soon for his tution.

Whoah I think music theory is damn difficult! Like what montera con missa WHATTHEHELL lol it's so hard can! Plus the what minor 7th what diminished ahhh.


Doodled till tenplus & jw came back, then we left the place. Jolin've got jingwen's adaptor because it refused to work for his phone.

Hmmm I wanted to go escape tomorrow but then oh shit I told aarthi I wanted to go for the CSI convention how how. Die.


Postnote, CDANS'VE GOT HOLS PROMOTION BOWLING RATES AS LOW AS $1 PER GAME!


Ooh I'm selfish I'm unfair I'm mean because that's what she is. So don't come blame me & ban me. You both are spoiling herr.

Whoah it's good that there's this autosave draft thing now. I almost had to rewrite this post.

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I'M DYING LIKE TWO Xs MARKED ON MY EYESSS.

why BECAUSE MORE PROBLEMS KEPT RESURFACING ON JACKJACK like

a) cd drive spoilt.
b) internal fan seemingly spoilt thus causing (c)
c) graphics driver probably spoilt
d) cursor has a constant flashing hourglass beside it even when nothing is loading.
e) lagging like shit


I'm going to sls or funan asap to fix jackjack OTHERWISE my life is going to go bust.

Shit maybe watch too much porn.
JOKING.
BUT if fate decides it that I would never be able to fix it then I SHALL trade in this one for a new laptop.

AAH my diskspace is like so little left BUT I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE IT WAS USED UP wahlao I'm dying I tell you dying.
----

Today actually was supposed to go escape with cousins or bowling with gary, but both decided to clash with each other thus causing both to be annulled.

& in the meantime, dad is at home because he took day off.


Yesterday went to bishan aunt's house & ate steamboat/bbq/grill. Cheers got an temporary companion, chocolate, which is only 5months old & super hyper. As in it never gets tired at all no matter how long you played with it.

Look how small it is. Adorable I tell you, adorable.




It kept licking my fingers licking my face chewing my fingers (it doesn't hurt, 'cos it's still undergoing teething). My god I want a puppy.


editin at 3.27am

I think I'm so in Y with MSN games, like jigsaw, UNO & minesweeper these few days. Like completed one today after a fourth attempt (first three coincidentaly disconnected) in 1hour which is a bloody short record.


Shit I really wanna fix jackjack soon. It's constantly lagging til that even when someone gtg on msn, I don't even have the time to bid them goodbye.

I'm so boreddddd today.

Anyway wanna watch fantastic four, ocean's eleven & men in white all by next week.


I'm really boreddddd today. &fiza don't use me as a shield from you-know-who. Though you're miss lucky, you're also miss lousy. HAH JOKING.

SEE I'M REALLY BOREDDDDD. I don't even know why I'm cracking something like this.


Cheers to hot molten gold selling at 17bucks per 5 cups at JE library cafe.


Don't say sorry, it's not your fault.

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Shit I don't like opera it sucks so badly.


I rushed all the way down to hillview from thomsom road in a merc cab dressed in adidas black tee & bball pants on monday.

So well lps bbq was uh, okay? Really can't say much, was kinda disappointed with the numbers though. Even so, thanks cheryl for putting up such a nice effort for the bbq! Love it, & still loving it.

Sent charmaine home with herman & then went home. Chatted a lot along the way & I just feel very confused.

BUT ANYWAY.

I woke up very early today & intended to go gym with herman. But actually the gym was unavailable so we went bowling instead. I won herman in all three games but it was only because herman was not ready. HAHA.


Went home slept the whole afternoon since feel exhausted. Woke up shortly & around the evening & went to watch shrek3 at vivo. Then at about midnight went to meet jieting & pengyang to play pool.

In the end pool closed early in both the superbowl & upstairs. So played arcade. House of the dead 2 I should win but the stupid gun kept asking me to reload. Though jieting died earlier lah, not rubbing it in though.

We decided to go mac to savour our hunger (okay actually it was mine) & saw huifen & victoria. Change of mind & went to S-11 instead. Chatted alot. Ate noodles but unfortunately ate it with much difficulty because realised there was egg in it.

Sent jieting home at around 3plus, & sent pengyang home too before heading home on a cab. Uncle was so nice; he wanted to discount me my fare thinking I had budget. Okay lah kinda an insult though but anyway I decline his nice offer because uncle drive so late to earn money. Don't want to eat his money LOL.


---
Read it.

I can't help but think alot. But I know I won't give up just yet.
Please please, believe in me.
& your reason is exactly why I won't give up as yet.

You're important.
---


I think I dressed too nice today should have just worn a tee-shirt right. Stupid pengyang & jieting kept assaulting me with elements of mervin.

I'm tired lah I'm tired. I had stopped & I think I probably shouldn't try again.


Guess I'd sleep as soon as I checked my other emails.



editin at 1.41pm

I just woke up & parents wants me to get ready to leave house -.-


I'm just blogging here to remind myself that I currently have MONEY SAVING PROBLEMS!

When I looked at my wishlist, I was like, "omg, why did I ask for this much."
Then I turned to look at my wallet & began to depress.


SO I've decided. I shall not spend anymore money till the end of hols. GOODYEAH.

Alrights going to aunt's house later playing x-box & probably going to show them house of the dead 2.

Labels: happenings, tanntheheart

Currently at eh, thomsom plaza? At my cousin's house. Looooonng day yesterday.

Okay so I left the house yesterday & met them at somerset. I swear I'm the only one who managed to dress well okay. They all dress until like go market shopping like that. LOL.

We didn't know where to go at first so just went heeren took neos. Quite stupid actually but what the heck. Then kept window shopping.


Haha what a nice tour guide I am walking aimlessly through the whole place! I think they all feel bloody stupid walking with me lor! We went to er paragon, far east, taka & stuff. Prata dog!


Hmmm I can't remember much. Bought this G2000 top again with jeremy. Hot pink seh, liked it quite lot. Gonna wear it for winnie's wedding. Jeremy good lor, able to be the doorboy. HAHAHA doorboy got alot of $$$$ to take one can.

We went to cine planning to watch a movie. Too bad there wasn't any movies that has an appropriate timing. So we gave up and went to walk around. Went to arcade & I died like so fast in HOTD2 though I knew where all the zombies were coming from.

Got something embarrasing happened when we went to the toilet can. I went to explore those stairways mah, so there was this door which I opened & went in.

Then guess what.

The other side of the door has no handle & the door shutted. So through the glass of the door I wavered to jeremy to open the door for me, as frantic as I can be.

He opened and the knob on his side dropped out, like CLANKED on the floor.


ROFL. Tania walked out of the toilet right on time & saw everything. Laughed like mad.



Okay not the point. So we went to meet up with their parents. They smsed tania and said they were in new building next to guess. They didn't know. So I told said, "Let's guess."

Lame.

Thought of eating japanese restaurant but in the end went to this very highclass chinese restaurant. Found out that you can know which drink it is just by looking at anything&whatever's ingredients actually.

Decided to go to safra to bowl. Drive there & then went bowl. I think both tania & I lost our momentum & got like a bare 100 in the first game. Because we planned to come to play pool mar, so my aunt told me and tania that if we can score better than our previous scores, we would be able to play.

So I scored a bare 101.

But tania didn't. So after like her turn, when it was our aunt's turn, we took our shoes and disappeared when she wasn't looking.

The scene damn hilarious.


So we started playing pool & they joined us shortly. Played a lot pool & went to their house because it was damn late.

Went to eat at the prata place & tania bet jeremy that if he ate a durian he's going to get a free PSP.

I couldn't sleep then & thus me and jeremy chatted like way into the night. Reminiscence alot of stuff & soon fell asleep.

They were supposed to wake up early at 9 this morning to complete their undone tution homework. But ended up woken up at 11plus. Still can slack till now. Haha.



I finished tania's kingdom hearts comics all the way until chain of memories. Not bad right.



Er, I think I don't give a damn.
Hurts so badly that it always don't matter anymore.


Errr I think don't watch movie later anymore. Shit going to disappoint jiahui.

But in the night going to lps bbq! I wanna wear LPS TEE!

Labels: outings

Okay now that I feel so much better, you guys should find me not writing such boring details anymore!


Yes yes my side still hurts but just mildly now. Hah & I just realised I only took a meal yesterday, like at 4plus for my breakfast, lunch & dinner. No wonder now I feel like I can eat a cow.

I peeled off my blister yesterday & now there's a small red patch down there which gets irritating whenever it gets into contact with the floor. Not pain though but still. -Shrugs.


Okay so I slept at 530am yesterday & received a very surprising morning call from jieting. Travelled all the way to jp at around tenplus but realised didn't wear sports shoes. So went all the way back home to get them & wasted like about 30minutes. Blahblah. Didn't bathe because felt that there wasn't a need to. OH how regretful.

Then gym for like erm an hour plus plus before going to jieting's void deck because she forgot to bring money & she wanted to bathe. Waited very very patiently for her despite her taking her own sweet time & got myself four annoying mosquito bites as a result. Luckily I swatted one (I think it was only one) & then like my pants got this tiny red blood stain which the mosquito got squashed on. But whatever. It's life ends here, & serves it right.

Pengyang & jialin joined us, & we took cab there but in the end still have to walk because smartsmart blackest gave the driver the wrong directions. Totally whatthehell.

Played pool for awhile which was like a torture because my whole body was numbed from all the strenous activites since morning & surviving without any food at all. Luckily jonah took over me so I went mac with jialin.

It was a short breakfast/lunch/dinner because afizah kept rushing me -.- By the time we returned it was time to go already. Me & jialin walked all the way to this bus stop to take 66 when the other one we reached just now has it. Wahlao like my legs never tired like that.

Had a nice nice chat with jialin on the bus. Reached & went up to MRT straight. Delibrately went to the other platform because don't want to stand with afizah LOL.

We reached kranji & afizah stood up to leave the train, because she thought woodlands was after yeetee. So I dumbly followed her feeling very confused. Then she realised & gave a very loud shriek of laughter before running back to the cabin. The scene was so ROFL embarrasing can. Our seats are let up to this ugly couple & we ended up standing out way there.

While waiting for our number, we toured around causeway. Then when it's our turn, I had to speak for afizah because she wasn't good with expressing. HAHAH you're lucky to have me here with you okay. Poor thing though, her handphone is going to be gone for three days. HAHAHAHA.

Then we took bus back to bukitbatok for bowling. It ended up that we're the only ones bowling because everyone else didn't want to go/couldn't make it. So we bowled two rounds and I got like only 137. Lost to afizah by 4 points What the hell right.

Left at around 8plus then went home. I feel blessed that I live just opposite that place man.


I went to sleep asap because was damn exhausted. Whoah I didn't eat dinner at all & my left side was hurting like mad for don't know what reason.

Think still going to gym with afizah & herman, then bowl for awhile before going towning with cousins. Mom said to get money from aunt first. Whoah seemed like going to spend quite much later eh :D


OHOH Pengyang cheerup & just try to control better next time. No use feeling so depressed over something that already happened.

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What makes you think that things will change.
What makes you think that this is the right choice.
What makes you think that everything is going to be better.

I don't have confidence at all.
So what makes you think.

& besides.
He's right.
I've tried before but you didn't.
& I don't want to try anymore.
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I promised pictures, but still, stay disappointed.








ROFL but not funny.


I want food!

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Aah I'm so exhausted. My eyelids are like blinking constantly to water my eyes. My sides & wrist hurt so badly. & I've gained a blister on my left feet. How nice eh.


So slept at 530am yesterday & woke up today by jieting's morning call. I think we can call her the black superwoman. She slept at 6 & woke up even earlier than me.

So we were supposed to go gym with jialin. I reached & jialin came shortly. Then after jieting reached I realised I was supposed to wear trackshoes. (I was wearing slippers -.-) & so I wasted like 30minutes to go back home & take them.

Then I reached thinking that there shouldn't be any more paiseh-ness. But in the end I didn't buy ticket to gym & wasted another 10 minutes going to the 2nd floor to buy it.


Jogged for like 20mins & did alot of gym stuff. Then we went at around 12.45pm, 'cos supposed to meet jonah for pool. Jieting took a long time to bathe & so I gained 4 mosquito bites on both of my legs. Pengyang & jialin joined us soon, which then we all cabbed to that place.


Jieting told the driver wrong directions & we ended up at bukit timah plaza. By then I'm like so very tired plus stinky 'cos I didn't bathe just now. We circled around the whole mall to realise it's the wrong place, and walked all the way to the bukit timah shopping centre.

Cabbed just to walk eh. o.O


Reached & played pool for awhile. Went mac & soon went to take bus with jialin to meet fiza.

I think it's so stupid can. Both of us kept crossing the road and ended up at this bus stop, to take 66 which we could have taken at the one we passed by just now.


So I finally reached with that fiza keeping rushing me. She's so stupid getting down at kranji without realising. HOW DUMB EH.



Ah I don't have energy to think well & write well. I feel that this post is so damn stone lor. Can I continue tomorrow. Pictures will be posted.


Aah tomorrow is going to be a looooong day I think, since I'm going gym again in morning, bowl again & towning with cousins. YAY neos!


(READ JUNE TENTH ENTRY![: )

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Sometimes it just bugs me that you know I'm here, but you appeared to not notice me.


So anyway after tution in the afternoon, I went back to sleep & woke up at like 5.
What a day, fiza lazy so we're going bowling tomorrow instead.


I think jackjack's going to crash soon. Hmmm soon I'd be sending him for repairs. Aah & I guess I'll not be seeing this dear oh friend of mine. Worse off I won't be able to get my music, blog or even talk on msn...

ALRIGHTS maybe it's a good thing too because then I'd be able to pioritise my time well, since this 'distraction' would be gone. Isn't that good? (NO?)


I ate 3 donuts just now & had a stomachache halfway when I was playing online UNO with jieting. Seemed like she isn't the only one not asleep yeah, 'cos I got smses from jolin & jiahui came online.



OH & HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LEE BUJIA HUI OKAY :D



Later will be a long long day. I don't know whether I'd go pooling in the end, but then there's still the postponed bowling with fiza, study group & cousin's house. All the way from morning to night.

I hope my fever subsides soon, & my stomachache will go away, so I won't be so sick for tomorrow.


I think I'd sleep without wearing any underwear later.
OKAY once again, I got carried away with too much details yeah.


P/S, jieting asked me to go gym tomorrow with her & jialin. How. Pooling or gym?? :S
PP/S, MRS TAN NEEDS HELP WITH BLOG. But she doesn't seemed to notice that I'm still awake in this late hour.

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Woh now at lokmun's apartment somewhere in tohguan. I think I'm such a nice person because I walked all the way like 1plus just now here just to keep him company. .. Okay maybe just for the ps2.

So we're playing silent hill 4 now. I'm currently in charge of instructing him directions with this walkthrough on his laptop, because SILENT HILL 4 IS A ZOMBIE GAME & I HAVE ZOMBIEPHOBIA.

So yes I refuse to take over for him even when he's whining about how he wants to sleep because he has to get up early later to go heeren. Boohoo.

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"I'm not at the well!"
"Okay just find something shiny. If it's something shiny then it's pistol bullets."
"Oh I think I see something shiny! .. Oh no wait, that's only the lamp."
"...... Use torchlight. Have not."
"... ..."
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Yuan hong is supposed to come over but I think the dumbass has fallen asleep, BUT even if he comes I doubt lokmun would ever open the door to let him in. How snobbish can lok get man.


Whoah I think I'll go home once the bus services are open. Not going to walk home, especially after watching such a realistic game.


Silent Hill 4 & Resident Evil 4 rocks but sucks at the same time.
Why, 'cos got zombie elements. SUCKS RIGHT. Wasted.


editin at 6.59am

Whoah I was feeling exhausted just now & almost collasping into bed but after a brief shower, now I'm more refreshed & totally clean :D

Haha I can't believe I actually snucked out from the house & returned when everyone's still asleep.

Dawn actually look like late evenings except that it's in reverse. A good thing to walk during midnight is because there's serenity and you can jaywalk like nobody's business. But the bad thing is that sometimes it gets so quiet that your mind gets all wirey.

Lokmun needs me to help him with his silent hill. Am absolutely to return for the favour.


Aah finally did this ps2 'sleepover'(familiar?), but indoubtfully not with you.
But I think I still want to.

Someone said this to me today,
"okay, den okay, den not okay, den okay..."
But I'll hope you'll forget, rebouncerebouncerebounce & push the button again though.

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Nothing much, intended to go zhihao's house to study. Bought mac over but ended up reading his brother's comics & playing house of the dead 2 instead.

ZOMBIEPHOBIA.

Then went home. Today was special for no reason, since we had steamboat for dinner.


I completed 2 jigsaws at the same time. Pro huh.
Bowl tomorrow, clarke quay on saturday, BBQ on monday.


Actually I'm looking forward to tuesday more.


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I shouldn't feel so much pain inside.

But I still do.
I still do.
I always do.
& I always will do.

Things aren't the same anymore, someone slap me to wake me up.
---


Oh fuck the frenzy state of paranoia.
I want to hate you but then I don't want to.

But do you feel the same way?
I hope so.

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Danny is so adorable!

All About You

It's all about you,
(It's all about you...)
It's all about you baby,
(It's all about...)
It's all about you,
(It's all about you...)
It's all about you.

Yesterday, you asked me something I thought you knew,
So I told you with a smile 'It's all about you'.
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me to,
Say 'You make my life worthwhile, it's all about you'.

And I would answer all your wishes, if you asked me to,
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.
Dancing on the kitchen tiles, it's all about you,
(Yeah..)

And I would answer all your wishes, if you asked me to,
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.
Dancing on the kitchen tiles,
Yes you make my life worthwhile,
So I told you with a smile...
It's all about you.
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I remember seeing them first on this nickelodeon request MTV thing,
The mtv they were showing was room on the 3rd floor.

Then I saw them in Just My Luck which casted them with Lindsay Lohan.

Then I fell in love.
MCFLY you rock my world.



The frozen water bottle exploded yesterday, blowing ice and water all around.
I had to use my hairdryer to blow dry my pants and underwear.

Ok maybe too much details.

HAPPY FUCKDAY & GOREGAY DAY EVERYONE.


P/S I have a very horrible ulcer beyond the side of the insides of my mouth. Very painful. Oh & added a new statcounter.

HERMAN you can never catch yourself lah!


editin- 1.45am

I know I should really be sleeping right now for tomorrow.
BUT.

I'M SUDDENLY VERY WORRIED ABOUT ALL THE HOMEWORK I HAVE & WHAT I'M EXPECTED TO DO EACH DAY.

The planner is no good because I'm like one chapter behind one day, so turned out I have to do three the other, then I'll not be able to finish and will need to do more the next...
TOTALLY TEDIOUS!
Somemore it's like EIGHTEEN DAYS LEFT to the end of holidays (bullshit) & school starts and more topics will be covered and I WILL BE RENDERED DEAD BY THEN.

Okay probably not.

BUT THE WHOLE REASON I'M FETCHING EVERYTHING IS BECAUSE I'M REALLY SCARED! What if Ols suddenly got brought forward to TOMORROW for instance. I'll be so totally dead shit.


OKAY ALRIGHTS SHAWN YOU SHALL NOT SLEEP A WINK TONIGHT & COMPLETE ALL THE HOLIDAY HOMEWORK YOU HAVE TODAY
(impossible.)
& CONTINUE YOUR DAILY REVISION AS OF EACH DAY LIKE YOU PLANNED FROM THE START.



But then on second thought, my eyelids seemed as if dumbbells are dragging them dow-
STOP. WAKE UP. MUSIC. ALIVE. HOMEWORK. HALF-ALIVE. MUSIC. LOUD MUSIC. NOW.

Whoah my guiltiness don't want to let me off. How noble. It's alright I have McFly to keep me company. Shit, ran out of hot chocolate.



& nope haha seemingly so but never.
It's still somewhere inside, & it will stay as memories.
How much I wanted but never yeah.

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(*Renamed. Previously [ The theory of FDAY & GDAY. ])

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Okay it's simple. Days associated with FIVE means F-DAY (short for fuck day) & days associated with SIX means G-DAY. (short for gay day)

WHY?

To be honest, I seriously don't know.
-.-

Okay lar, for G-day, please let jingwen explain. But as for F-day, it originated from March 15th I guess. I discussed it with jill and because our day was so fucked up, we just named if fuckday.

And then slowly, we started having anniversaries for march 25th, april (5th, 15th & 25th) & may 5th.

YES our days were ohsobad for these days so well this is it.
SO YES TODAY IS FUCKDAY. PLEASE CHEER AND WAVE YOUR ARMS IN THE AIR.

As for tomorrow, jingwen is going to celebrate g-day with his 'gay' friend.


Oh & we call it differently too.
xTH = ____ DAY,
1xTH = double ____ DAY,
& 2xTH = triple/gore ____ DAY.

& for 5th of may, it's SUPER FUCKDAY ; 6th of june, it's GORE GAYDAY.
So tomorrow is gore gay. YAY.


(* Please ignore what I wrote if you find it very lame. I find it lame myself too.)
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I slept like 4 in the morning & woke up like 10 today, not knowing our meeting was 11 instead of 12.


The original six took train to donutfactory, and queued for threehours, buying 2 dozen each.



I KNOW I'M SO PRO RIGHT GETTING EVERYONE ADDICTED TO DONUTS.
Then split and gathered back at cheryl's house before heading off in the evening.


I CAN'T GET MCR'S MAMA OUT OF MY HEAD
"MAMA, WE ALL GO TO HELL. "


I shall always be waiting till you're ready.


My legs are very tired, so is my mind & my insides.
Like they are finding a way to lurge out and swallow me instead.


I NEED TO FINISH MY HOMEWORK ASAP OR I WILL KEEP PROCRASTINATING.
Haha and yayness, 'cos I beat cheryl's sister record & won myself a donut.


I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO BLOG ABOUT SO THIS ARE ALL IT FOR TODAY.
amelia wants me to think, hmmm.

Okay lah, my aunts are over now playing mahjiong, and they called me crazy for queueing so much for donuts, saying that they ownself don't even have patience waiting for a cab at the taxi stand lest alone this.

SORRY NO MOOD FOR A POST. Hah who ask you to force me LOL.

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Haha as always, I didn't see it coming and now it hurts as usual.


I'm trying not to update a day but as you can see I can't resist the temptation.

Oh I feel very sickened for no reason actually. Why is it that I'm so confused over here when they are all so seemingly unshakened by what is going on.


Tution teacher came and an awkward scene got carried out because she didn't know my chinese don't need to be tutored at the moment.

Completed MegamanZero 2, & jingwen evolved.


I need more water my face felt very warm for 3/4 of the time. By the way, HERMAN & CHERYL are back! Okay maybe now all my reads are going to know so ..weird?

Na-da, nothing else. Going out later.



What a boring day.

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I'm lazy to sign in to msn because I know I'm going to lag out anyway.


These few days keep waking up late like tenplus eleven in the morning, because overnight study & watch movie. Oh shit I think it'll become a habit & I'll be waking up late on school days once school reopens.


Mom decided that today was good day to eat timsum so we travelled all the way to IMM to find her timsum restaurant that she said is good.
So we went there. &

- Carpark was so full can. We spent like 30mins in the car looking for a vacancy, trying not to spot cars getting out but people walking around which are taking keys out of their pockets.

- Searched for the place for like 20mins ++ ? Mom says it's supposed to be on the fourth floor but we all know now that the entire storeys from 4th onwards are used for offices & carparks.

- Finally settled down at this wide big big hongkong restaurant opposite LeeHwa jewellery which food sells super ex, but taste ordinary.



We all had a discussion about our family status during eating. Yes yes our family is the most peaceful one yet, without getting into any arguments nor having any crisis.
(Much of my other cousins' have got involved in various 'events' that got all of them a bad record, actually. But I think it's cute to watch adults quarrel.)


So yeah my family is a lucky one.

I suggested my parents remarry a second time once they retire! Haha they had been sweet lovers since the delicate age of eighteen can.



Then went over to cousins's place for awhile before heading to gombak mac for study group.



Me & jingwen had a brawl because we made fun of each other, so now I have a huge blueblack on my eye & he has crooked teeth.

Joking.

But haha he taunted me with cheeseburger wrapper so I smsed to the LITE tv screen.

So I wrote,
- You & your doublecheese, but I forgive you. LOL
Then I told him and sent another one,
- Jingwen is trying to spot my message. So dumb eh. LOL

So he used my phone and replied,
- "There are better things other than women to laugh at," -shawn 1991-????
(LIKE I'm able to live till year 9999?)
& he sent another.
- ......... shawn says he won't live until that long, so it's 1991 - 20??. ...
(something like that.)


Okay then jolin came and saw, so she laughed and sent another.
- jingwen is so stoopid, and shawn too!
(please, who's more STOOPID to spell it that way.)




Yeah we were that bored.

& so we decided to go home after buying prata.
Mom tells me to go home later because I don't have keys, otherwise I'm going to squat outside until they return from my cousin's house.

I took 945 big round. Reached home and seconds later, they came to my rescue.



Yeah that's that. & my dad is now eating my pratas. So wlaos can.

I have to control my daily expenditure. Mom thinks I'm too much of a spenddrift.



FINALLY tomorrow's the official day that starts the june holidays can.
One week passed, 22 more days to go.



Oh I think I'm so loooooost.

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I should have just worn slippers yeah!


Jogged two rounds at gombak stadium,
Bought new sling bag after study group,
Then walked around before heading home.


Haha stuck in changi & afraid!

Anyway jolin went to mayday concert, charmaine went to a wedding dinner, herman to bintan & naima to genting.
HAISH not much LPS activity.

Like there is much to do tomorrow though.



I find it so hard to blog about today, maybe moodless?
Oh well back to geography & then some dota.

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My wrist says, " - - - - CUT HERE - - - - - ; I'm emo."


After the compass workshop I've decided to restrict myself to like one hour of COMP use per day? Though I know it's going to be so impossible.


I didn't feel like it so didn't meet up with either BABY DARLING nor CHARMAINEANG after school today, & instead went over to jill's house where she taught me the foundation of integration.

You know when we were watching ellen degeneres, I was like kakchiaoing NIKKI while she was lying down. She was so irritated that she turned over to face the wall instead. What a nice bitch.



I hate/love sleeping on buses because you get the excitement of missing your stop & like you just have to wake up repeatively to check if you're reaching. & the stops are like so different each time like as if you're travelling on a bus on fastforward.

Such a surprise that cousins aren't over today.


I'm so laid back with my planner its sucks oh so badly.

Don't resent me, & if you're feeling empty,
Keep me in your memories, leave out all the rest.


Oh I'm sorry I lied about drifting away.


edit at 1.01am

someone says three years from now.
.enog m'i llit revenehw ,reveerehw uoy rof ereht eb ot gniog m'i& ,gnihtyreve ym er'uoy taht wonk dluohs uoy

it doesn't hurt.


CONQUEST TOMORROW. Boy & am I tired right now. It's like as if I'm falling dead any minute.



whatever isn't yours, wouldn't be yours.

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