Maybe this would carry on, Labels: pictures, random, tanntheheart
Maybe it won't.
But because it's still here. The impact of it still lingers.
This probably sparked the whole gastric flu thing. Thanks shenn for your 35(?) flux of pepper.
The best bud you can never find in anybody else's tongue.
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I have some things to clear off my mind.
To be honest, I have no idea how to be a good friend.
For some, I may just be a very good listener, or a very good joker.
I think I'm nowhere near a companion.
Sometimes I even stereotype people unknowingly. The mouth I have, just speaks whatever comes to the dumb mind of mine. I have a problem with socialising; sometimes I can communicate very well, & sometimes I don't even know how to initiate a conversation.
I don't know how to be a nice person at all. But I'm learning.
If I could, I want to stop lying, stop envying others or resenting what I currently have, start appreciating, & start being motivated. I want my self-esteem to be raised higher. I want to be nice.
But I know, soon these thoughts would dissipate, & I'll return to that superficial person who keeps judging everybody & becomes a nuisance to everyone. Damn.\
Somebody teach me how to grow up & make wise decisions. I want to fend for the dignity I owe myself for the past 16 years now please.
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I think, in this world, everybody is blindly searching for something. They don't know what. They don't know where. They don't know why. But yes, they're still searching desperately and anxiously.
But isn't it great to find someone that can play well at the melody of your heart? Dubiousness makes you wonder, & you'll want seconds once you know that's the only time you'd feel it.
